I AM That Fool...

Wei Xiong sms-ed me this morning, telling me he heard the song "Kissing a Fool" and thought of me...

I got curious and checked out the lyrics... and promptly burst into tears.

Dearie.. I am that fool.

You are far,
When I could have been your star,
You listened to people,
Who scared you to death, and from my heart,
Strange that you were strong enough,
To even make a start,
But you'll never find
Peace of mind,
Til you listen to your heart

People,
You can never change the way they feel,
Better let them do just what they will,
For they will,
If you let them,
Steal your heart from you

People,
Will always make a lover feel a fool,
But you knew I loved you,
We could have shown them all,
We should have seen love through

Fooled me with the tears in your eyes,
Covered me with kisses and lies,
So goodbye,
But please don't take my heart

You are far,
I'm never gonna be your star,
I'll pick up the pieces
And mend my heart,
Maybe I'll be strong enough,
I don't know where to start,
But I'll never find,
Peace of mind,
While I listen to my heart

People,
You can never change the way they feel,
Better let them do just what they will,
For they will,
If you let them,
Steal your heart,

And people,
Will always make a lover feel a fool,
But you knew I loved you,
We could have shown them all,

But remember this,
Every other kiss,
That you ever give
Long as we both live
When you need the hand of another man,
One you really can surrender with

I will wait for you,
Like I always do,
There's something there,
That can't compete with any other

You are far,
When I could have been your star,
You listened to people,
Who scared you to death, and from my heart,
Strange that I was wrong enough,
To think you'd love me too.

I guess you were kissing a fool,
You must have been kissing a fool.

Hellooo Elaine! :)

Caught up with Elaine yesterday! Realised we had not met up for a year!

So of course we had ONE YEAR'S worth of gossip to catch up with! haha! Tok tok tok until as usual lost track of time... ;p

She is always the one to look for if you want to catch up with the lastest news.. damn cool la you girl :)

We had dinner at Menotti's at Raffles City and as usual i over indulged.. hee. *guilt*

Oh! And she's learning fortune telling now! *excited* Remember to plot for me ah!!! HEE. ;)

I promise we'll catch up more often!!!! *hugs*




Off to Hong Kong tonight! Back to work! *sian*

Mambo Jambo Madness!

I went down to Mambo @ Zouk with my "kah cheng" Kelvin yesterday. (He's my cousin.. if nobody got it... ;p)

Eh u skinny bastard.. eat more can??

Mambo was Freaky Shit.

I couldnt STOP staring at the dancers. They were all dancing in sync.. I couldnt believe the whole Mambo dancing was still so IN.

My mouth kept hanging open. I kept bursting out in laughter at the inane actions. I was in a mixed mood of awe and disgust.

OVERALL.... im impressed. The time and dedication they took to learn EVERY FREAKING ACTION TO EVERY FREAKING SONG.

Champs man.

Eh the girls there all damn chio. All young and nubile.

I felt so old.

Fuck.

I am old.

I LOVE BLING! *blingblingbling*

I lurve bling.

I should have been born a black chick in LA.

I should get those giant, diamond studded "Peace Sign" necklaces and giant bling rings.

Hee.

I got myself a Guess bling watch. *bling*

And I caved in at the Levis store when I was collecting my new jeans (yes i FINALLY got new jeans), I bought a super bling belt. *blingbling*

Go ahead Angie. Kill me! lalalala... Come on... I know u want to borrow it. ;)

Oh.. and i self declare myself an official iPod iDiot.

I just got meself an iPod Nano. The functions baffle me.

And DUN ask me to "Read The Fucking Manual" (RTFM). I hate it. I have no patience. Someone.. anyone, please read it and tell me what to do with the damn iPod!!!!

WaRRGgghHH! I'm totally not an Apple person... I should have stuck with Creative. ;p


Nice? :) (I love my iPod casing from Fukuoka! Hee.)

Anyway, am I such a nasty person? I dun understand my temper sometimes... Why I just flip out over the littlest things...

The worst part is, I never do that to friends... only to people who I care about the most.

The teeniest words said hurt me in the biggest way I guess...

whyGeriwhy?

More Than Words...

Saying I love you
Is not the words I want to hear from you
It's not that I want you
Not to say, but if you only knew
How easy it would be to show me how you feel
More than words is all you have to do to make it real
Then you wouldn't have to say that you love me
Cos I'd already know

What would you do if my heart was torn in two
More than words to show you feel
That your love for me is real
What would you say if I took those words away
Then you couldn't make things new
Just by saying I love you
More than words

Now I've tried to talk to you and make you understand
All you have to do is close your eyes
And just reach out your hands and touch me
Hold me close don't ever let me go
More than words is all I ever needed you to show
Then you wouldn't have to say that you love me
Cos I'd already know

More Ass-Baring Mayhem! ;)

Again I laughed till my tummy hurt... Damn f**king funny can! I love the Japanese and their wonky sense of humor.

"ME" Time In Fukuoka :)

Yes I had some really good "ME" time.

Me. Me. ME.

And where else better to spend it in than in Japan :)

I swear... I don't think I have felt this happy or "free" for months.

Just before I left, I managed to make somethings clear for myself... so i left all my emotional baggage back home and left for Fukuoka.

And what a LOVELY time i had there...

I spent the day doing whatever I wanted. Walked where ever I wanted to go, bought whatever I wanted to buy...

I can't describe to you how empowering it is. I've always liked going out by myself.. but I just dunno why it felt super good this time round. :)

I shopped, bought clothes, cosmetics, and a VERY SPECIAL MEN'S magazine for my dearest WeiX. God I was trying to keep a straight face and not panic when i was paying at the counter.. You, darling... had better be happy with the damn magazine. ;)

Had a good dinner at a cute curry joint, CoCoICHI Curry House! (YES CURRY AGAIN! I can't help it if I love Japanese Curry waat...*pout*) Lots of pointing at pictures and frantic head scratching.. but they were so good-natured about not understanding English that I just had to laugh with them.

Caught a FANTASTIC festival performance held outside the hotel. It was a Jazz (My Fav music) and Tap Dance (I Love Dance!!!) show. So a combi of two of my favourite things... AHHH! I was the crazy idiot girl smiling to herself throughout the performance. :) But that's me... I just cant help smiling if I'm happy. :)

There was also a fireworks show built in to their muscial fountain feature.. so it was such a treat for me! *whee!*


Fantastic Dancing and Live Jazz to Boot :)


I LOVE Fireworks!

OH I HAaaavvvee to mention. I love the Hyatt. You can never go wrong staying in the Hyatt. :) Shiok big spacious bathroom. With a cute little TV inside to boot. I just soaked myself in bathsalts and read a magazine. Ooh. Decadent.


SO CUTE! :)

But you know what? I admit.. I felt alittle empty. During the perfomance, I just wished I was sharing that moment.. a moment which was so special to me. Thats the thing about life, sometimes you just need that special someone next to you at that moment, so you could just turn around, smile and say, "Wasn't that great?".

Fuck. I wish I wasn't such a naive romantic.

Its Time For Therapy Again

Angie took a day off to accompany me out yesterday.. so sweet she *kisskiss*

So of course wat else to do but go SHOPPING! haha...

Din really get much.. but LOVE what i bought.

What else better to get than shoes and knickers! :)



Hee Hee. Angie chose the polka dots for me. Love it :)

As for the red knickers.. prob they go well with the shoes? Alone? ;p

I made the terrible mistake of stepping on the weighing scale yesterday and made a HORRIFIC discovery.

Im like....... almost 50KG! I nearly fainted. I swear. The wail i let out could be heard as far as Jurong.

Decided Im denial long enuf and have to get a freaking new pair of jeans since im constantly being bugged abt it being too small. Yea Yea.

Tried looking. Just couldnt get a pair which fit me right. sigh. Struggled into so many pairs i literally was sweating in the fitting room. Believe me.

Im off to Fukuoka tonight. I have it on good authority that their bathroom is heaven. I cant wait to soak in the tub :)

I wonder if it comes with a retractable shower head... ;)

Maybe One Day...

I guess I have been quiet for a while...

Things have been different. Not to mention difficult.

(Wow... this is the first time i find it hard to write anything...)

The one thing you learn and discover quickly when you are newly single are who your true friends and loved ones are.

My family and friends, have all been my pillars of support. They have handed me the tissues, been generous with their hugs, time and words of encouragement.

I know it may seem cruel what I have done. Going ahead without a glance over my shoulder, but I suppose I took too long to move ahead. I created a mess. I'm trying my damnest to clean it up.

I know that in life, what I hope and wish for may not always be mine. It's painful. But I understand....

I met a chap who called out to me as I was walking away, in the most earnest of voices he said, "Do you believe in Destiny?"

I turned back and smiled.

And my answer is Yes I do believe in Destiny. Maybe one day, if things were ever meant to be.

Maybe One Day, I will be happy.

Maybe One Day, things will be clearer.

Maybe One Day, if you and I are meant to be.

*sigh*

I got this off Hellsbane's bulletin board. Normally I hate this type of romantic lovey dovey crap... But somehow I guess this just about sums up how I feel... grossgrossgross.

When a girl just stares deep into your eyes, she's HOPING that you're hers and only hers ( it shows much she cares: eyes never lie)

When a girl is quiet, millions of things are running through her mind.

When a girl is not arguing, she is thinking deeply.

When a girl looks at you with eyes full of questions, she is wondering how long you will be around.

When a girl answers, "I'm fine, " after a few seconds, she is not at all fine.

When a girl stares at you, she is wondering why you are so wonderful.

When a girl lays her head on your chest, she is wishing for you to be hers forever.

When a girl calls you everyday, she is seeking for your attention.

When a girl wants to see you everyday, she wants to be pampered.

When a girl says, "I'll love you forever," she means it.

When a girl says that she can't live without you, she has made up her mind that you are her future.

When a girl says, "I miss you, "no one in this world can miss you more than that

*sigh*

Oh Crap.

Its off to Auckland again. Send me your warmth.

Shut the F**K Up

*WHRRRRRRR* goes the pneumatic drill.

*BANGBANGBANG* goes the sledge hammer.

*ARRRGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!* goes Geri.

Bloody insane renovations started at 10am this morning. I am literally sitting here and typing this with earplugs in my ears.

Its not helping much.

I have a freaking headache now.

Came home after my facial hoping against hope that the drilling would have ended and I can take a nap...

Well, knowing my luck.. Bah.

I'm getting outta here. NOW.

Please dear God... let it end by tomorrow. *drops 10bucks into offertory box*

Hit Me Baby!

Check this out.. the geography of the hits I recieved on my blog in the past month.

1.Singapore
2.United States
3.Australia
4.Malaysia
5.Thailand
6.Canada
7.Chile
8.Japan
10.Korea (South)
11.Libya
12.Mexico
13.Germany
14.Spain
15.Argentina
16.Uruguay

Cool or waatt.... Bet half of them dun understand a thing I write in my blog :)

Thanks everyone! :)

HeadButting = Butt Head!

Guess wat. I slept through the World Cup Final.

Stupid or wat. Hahaha.

But nevertheless, I caught the highlights and saw Zidane's stupid headbutt incident! I was like, "WAT THE HELL!!! WHAHAHAHAhahahaaaa"

I mean, geeze... when was the last time you saw a man headbutt another man. I tot it only happens with toddlers in the playpen.

Honestly... I love to see some manly pushing, shouting... like.. waahh... so MAN. (hahaha) but headbutting just.. totally cannot make it, can?

Wat a stupid way to retire from the World Cup.. He can eat humble croissant (OKAY.. stupid joke!) for the rest of his life.

Renovations going on in the flat directly above mine. ARGH! When can i ever have a day of peace and quiet when im having an off day??!!! Freak.

On a stupid, seperate note, never listen to depressing chinese songs early at 6am when you are having PMS. Wah, on the bus from Perth hotel to the airport, I was listening to Jay Chou's "An Jing" on my MP3.. guess its the first time i actually listened to the words (I still cant believe I understood any of it). Wah lau, damn sad leh the words... So FEELING (said with hong-kie accent) until I cannot take it. Hahaha.. Ok, so I admit. I was half in tears by the time I reached the airport. *blow nose*

On another seperate WHINY note, I have a BIGGG 2 inch bruise on my thigh :( *sobsob*

I dropped my luggage on my leg. I know it sounds stupid but yes it happened.

It's heavy and Im a weakling.

*pout*

I want some TLC.

Dun Feel So Good....

Argh.. Feel like crap.

I...

- Feel bloated
- Keep craving chocolate
- Feel crampy
- Have Swollen B**bs
- Feel pukish
- Have crazy mood swings
- Feel SO SO SO tired
- Have backache/shoulderache/everywhere ache

It sucks to be a woman sometimes.

We are entitled to bark at you. You would if you had all the above symptoms...

Now go away.

*munches on Tim Tam*

Wise Words from A Wise Man...

Was talking nonsense with my team people today (gosh is miss them so much!) and my team boy said he learnt this phrase from a Captain:

"A Happy Wife Equals a Happy Life"

I say CHAMPS MAN!! Whoever this Captain is, I think u're the smartest person in the world.

*shakes hand*

Smart man.. smart man.

Face it. If The Wife is happy, you have food on ur table, your clothes are washed, packed and ironed, you have a warm body to hug at night and a nice kiss in the morning before u leave for work.

If The Wife is unhappy (BAD MOVE), you have NO food on ur table, NO clean clothes or underwear, u sleep ALONE on the couch and you get a cold glare in the morning.

So there. Moral and lesson of story? Keep your woman happy.

So Simple. :)

I had a nice time catching up with my sis today (and yesterday...). She said something which really surprised me.

"Your smile tells alot..."

REALLY? I din realise... dammit.

19 Years and Counting...

Was MSN-ing Angie today and I was mentioning to her that since I won't be heading off to London anymore, I wouldnt be able to get her the T-Shirt she wanted. She was surprised I even remembered, and I replied, "Sweetie, I never forget."

It's true Angie dear, though I'm away half the time and you are busy to death with work, I still do think of you.

Its nice to have a friend for *sticks out fingers and toes* er.... *count count* 19 years?!

Pwah.

Even I didn't realise its been that long.

From that skinny little elf with fringe covering half her face to the chiobu now.. sighz.

From Primary School...

(Yes thats angie and me! The two idiots on the right of the front row! hahaha)

To Secondary School...


To Poly...


'Till Today.


God we looked so gross. Hahahaha.....

Love u sweetie *kiss*

Chocolate Monster

See what I got from NZ!

A HUGE-MUNGO-BUNGO bar of chocolate! *WAHAHAHAHahahaaa*



*RIPRIP*

*CHOMP MUNCH CRUNCH*

*MMMMmmm*

Life is so sinful... ;)

And how gong am I? I din even realise I have a day off tomorrow! sheesh! If I wasnt checking to change flight, i bloody would have gone to the airport tomorrow at 5am!

See? That's how tuckered out I am from last night.

*big chocolatey grin*

Brazilian-ed

No No... I didn't get a wax.. (though i did stand in the shower for an extended period of time today with a shaver... ;))

I just CANT BELIEVE BRAZIL IS OUT!!!!

The damn brazil T-shirt i bought is USELESS now! ARRGH!

Even Im boy-cotting Delifrance for a year. *Pui*

When the Caps announced the score over the PA, I was stunned. All of us just looked totally stunned. Biangz.

Wah lau damn sian leh. No brazil...

WAIT a min... Im not even going to be around during the finals. Im not even going to be ANYHERE while the match is played... I'll be flying over some ocean or another.. why should i care. *humph* *pout*

Wats wrong with me... my muscles keep cramping up. My thigh, now my toes, my neck. I need a freaking massage..

I was walking along the street in Auckland today when I came across an ad which was on the pavement at a crossing junction.

It said, "It is easy to begin something, but harder to continue - Japanese Proverb".

I stood there staring at it for a minute and i thought, "It is easy to begin something, but harder to continue, and it is hardest to end - Geri's Proverb"

Well... Its true rite? ;)

Im so Dead..

So I'm leaving for Auckland in a while..

Im dead coz i don't know a single thing about my work. ;p

U see la, U see la Geri... Everyday play and play.

Tee Hee.

Its gonna be cold there... dammit, my turn to be cold and lonely. :(

Its doesnt help now that my damn leg hurts... It suddenly cramped up when i woke up this morning.. YeooWWw!!!

It was pretty bad... I literally sprung up and squeezed my calf till the pain subsided. And now the damn muscle there aches... GREAT.

Think of me... and wish me luck. *sobs*